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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 08:23

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We were not on the streets..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

How would you feel if your girlfriend had dick pics on her phone?

And i lived it daily.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

How do you find out who your handler is as a targeted individual?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Why do I feel so down and not happy anymore? I also feel really tired and non-motivated. Is that normal for someone to feel that way?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But, we were locked up after school.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

What is a fun psychological trick to try on someone?

Was to survive, this bastard.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Comes on , in middle age.

If you could go back and rewrite the Legend of Korra, what would you change, and why?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Why is dating so frustrating and difficult for a guy?

Would this be the day?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He knew the spot.

Why does Africa have all mineral resources but she is suffering economically?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

It was going to be , some day.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Kquorans, can you please write a story?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

What did i know ?

Why did i forgive my father ?

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Im still living with it.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was 9 years of age.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She found it foreign!.

I could never make a relationship work though!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

One cannot live in the past .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Put me off passion for life!!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Who then, do I blame.?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I think the readers, may guess!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I will be 64.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I don,t even have a pension.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She married twice! .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

This is how, and why children get BPD.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Especially a lifetime of it.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She loved him until the end.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But it wasn’t much.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I waited trembling.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

(And it was in our own minds.)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She wouldn,t have been !

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Ive learnt so much.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I was very sick at this time too.

But ive been too sick for many years..

So whats the point in blame.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I have no regrets .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was seconnd youngest,

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

This is soul school!.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was scared of men, in general

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So, i spoilt her more .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He resisted the act ,that day.

My family never makes their pension either.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She was in good health!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

When she asked me how she looked .

My life is so biszare .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I never cut or harmed myself..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We all went to grammer schools

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I couldn’t, believe it.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

All the time i was locked up.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I write beautiful poetry .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I said to her

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.